My first time...

I am not really sure how to begin “blogging”… but here goes. A friend of mine has this really cool blogging site http://www.dottcomments.blogspot.com/ that I have been lurking in on. Not sure if one can "lurk" on a blog site, but that’s what I feel I have been doing, in that I have never posted any comments. I just read and feel some connection to her through her posts. All of this mostly unbeknownst to her. As it stands, I enjoy her stories, and thought I might like to do the same some day. I have one major barrier to break however. I feel that perhaps I might be an ok writer, but have this unreasoned fear of writing. Not sure why that is, but thought that one way to explore both the fear and the interest is to just do it.

Now determining what to write about is yet another subject. I have heard it is not advisable to discuss work. Discussing relationship issues is probably not advisable either, at least if one wants to remain in discussed relationship. That leaves possible subjects such as politics, world events, food… I suppose I could always talk about me. As much as I like to talk about me, I seem to be questioning weather I would be an interesting enough subject to blog about. Which is a thought I now feel I should discuss, as of course I must be interesting, right? Right? A recent post from my friend’s blog lists 15 things about her.When I read that, I wondered if I could come up with 15 things about me?! As I seem to be currently in a low self esteem mood, I am concerned that it might be comprised mostly of fear and self-loathing. I think I might just start a list, and see where it goes. I am going to cheat, and follow the outlined theme from her list (hope she doesn't mind). Here goes…

1. I worked at Taco Bell for 8 years, starting in high school, managing for 7 years. Decided against college, as my “career” wouldn’t allow time for and/or supply the money for tuition.
   
2. My favorite color is blue. Green is a close second.
   
3. I don’t think I have a favorite band. My musical taste varies from alternative, to top 40’s, to country, to oldies. Can’t stand jazz, not fond of rap.
   
4. My newest hobby is in fact photography. Just bought a great new digital camera with 12X optical zoom, add on telephoto lenses, and a tripod. Don’t really know how to use it all yet. Interested in learning.
   
5. I currently wear earth shoes! Did you know they have come back… not a huge following though. I bought ‘em at Rainbow blossom. They look different than they did in the 70’s. The pair I own look like hiking boots.
   
6. I say I am a vegetarian, but I eat almost anything. I really just lack discipline. My therapist suggests that I am a “vegetarian” of the heart.
   
7. Ice cream is indeed the perfect food… do you mean there may be a difference of opinion on this?
   
8. I have recently started (again) college. Taking one class on line. Love the online factor! It helps me in that I seem to not want to go to class regularly, apparently I lack discipline- did I mention that already?
   
9. I got nothin’ on the fur coat comment, so I’ll ad lib (scary thought for me). I was kicked out of high school a month before graduation for skipping school. Something about discipline seems to be a pattern. I went back the following year, and did indeed graduate. Although I tell everyone that I graduated the year I was suppose to.
   
10. I never was a bartender, but I did make out with a straight woman in a straight bar once. I was slightly intoxicated... and I’m kinda diggin’ on the “trend of serving almost any cocktail in a martini glass and calling it "stupid-tini" or something.” I can now actually drink a “Martini”.
    
11. I registered as a republican and voted for Reagan. It was 1980 and I was 9 years old- it was a school election and the only time I have voted republican.
    
12. Got nothin’ on Ted Danson either, or anything similar.
    
13. I would like to have nitrous oxide when I have my teeth cleaned, have only had it once. It was for before I had my wisdom teeth removed. I did love it. -the nitrous oxide that is.
14. I never had an imaginary playmate as a child. It was only after I discovered that I was a lesbian that I had an imaginary “playmate”.
15. I took five years of German in high school. Never could speak it.

Ok, so technically I only came up with 14 things about me. Surprisingly however, the list doesn’t seem to be consumed with fear and self-loathing! Now off to see if I can figure out how to post this on an actual blog site. If you are reading this… I was successful!