Happy Valentine's Day

This Valentine's Day I decided to celebrate my singleness with a trip to the immediate care center to discover that I have kidney stones…Twins, in fact. My sister had her 9 pound 13 oz sixth child the previous day; I suppose I might have been jealous that she was getting so much attention.
Yesterday, my cousin suggested to me that now that I was "ageing", I should consider paying more for my monthly insurance premiums to avoid the high deductible I will have to pay for my scheduled surgery. Thanks. Two months late (for open enrollment) and a thousand dollars too late came that advice.
Most people that know me have heard me say that I am begging for gray hair. I have always looked younger than I am, and I have always seemed to surround myself with friends a little older than I. I only had 3 gray hairs, so I gave up on the gray and colored my hair a few weeks ago. I have also been looking so forward to my next birthday, when I will turn 35... I figure that at least firmly establishes me in my thirties.

Today, I think I should get age points for the kidney stones as well.

Career Du Jour

I have eliminated personal chef from my list of potential career choices. I really don't like to cook chicken, in fact is kind of grosses me out, and it seems to be such a popular dish these days. On second thought, that may soon be changing... but I digress.

My latest thought for a career... I think I'd like to be a jeweler. I have taken to making earrings and necklaces. I think I have some talent in this area!

Stay tuned!

Another quiz

After a full day at the silent meditation retreat (I had never done a full day of silence before; not to mention a full day of meditation. It was great, but indeed exhausting), I had an email from a friend with the link to this test. I feel my results seemed appropriate today.

Siddhartha Gautama You two would probably really get along!

Founder of Buddhism "All wrong-doing arises because of mind. If mind is transformed can wrong-doing remain?"

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 40% on Intuitive

You scored higher than 0% on Structured

You scored higher than 80% on Mildness

You scored higher than 0% on Traditional

Not surprising!

This was stolen directly from dottcomments. For those of you who don't know her, she is indeed Wonder Woman!



K-Rad's results:

You are Spider-Man

Spider-Man 95% Superman 70% Batman 55% Supergirl 55% Iron Man 45% The Flash 40% Robin 35% Hulk 35% Green Lantern 30% Catwoman 30% Wonder Woman 25%

You are intelligent, witty, a bit geeky and have great power and responsibility.

Click here to take the Superhero Personality Quiz

Future Career Choice

I think I am going to start tracking my career choices on my blog.

To catch you up...

Last week, I wanted to be a Radiological Tech. (K-Rad, Rad Tech... sounds good, right?)

Earlier this week, it was a web designer.

Today, I choose Personal Chef. I love to cook, but don't want to work in a restaurant. I can travel around and prepare meals in your home. Or my home, then I can transport... whichever.

South Beach Diet

I have decided that I would like to shed a few pounds and rid myself of some food addictions I have. Diabetes runs rampant in my family. Sugar is my natural enemy.

I am approaching day 11 of the 14 day Phase 1 plan of this diet. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. However, I am not sure if that's the train coming right towards me... or is it the light beckoning me to another realm?
I am actually doing pretty well at this stage. A week ago today, I thought I would kill someone for a snickers bar. I don't really even like snickers! I also have several witnesses that can attest to my overall weepy, cranky, and borderline psychotic behavior due to sugar withdrawal. My mental state has now achieved its normal balance and I am down 6.5 pounds.

I found that after the 4th day, I stopped having the taste for sugary substances. Sure, they still look good, but I am not craving them anymore... at least not in my concious state.

Last night, I awoke from dreaming of cinnamon rolls. Fresh, hot out of the oven, ooey, gooey, sweet nectar of the gods, cinnamon rolls. In my dreams, I am processing all that I can't have in my life right now. It's therapuetic, I suppose. I did wake up longing for what's no longer available to me. It is however, helping me answer the age old Kelly question of what do I want, versus what do I need.

I find life lessons in everything.

When I grow up...

I am taking a writing class through JCC. One of our first assignments involved taking a test on what your intelligence areas are. I found my results to be interesting in that I scored highest in the area of musical intelligence. I have never played an instrument, was told by my high school choir director that I couldn't sing, and I never, ever thought of starting a band. My lowest score was in logical/mathematical ability... funny, as presently I work in the accounting field.
Our current assignment tests us on our interests, and then suggests careers that might best suit us. I think this is great, as I am almost 35 and just now starting to seriously think about what I want to be when I grow up.
I blame my lack of direction on my ADD. I have often said that I have too many interests to focus on just one. This test I took proves it! I have an interest level of 54% in an artistic/creating career; 51% in realistic/ producing & adventuring careers; 47% in investigator/ analyzing careers; 31% in social/ helping careers; 22% in conventional/ organizing careers; and 17% in enterprising/ influencing careers. Of course they gave job suggestions for all of these... but would you look at the first three numbers... I am interested in those three almost equally.
I do find it interesting that I have been feeling more creative in the past year than I have in my entire life. I feel my creativity remains mostly untapped. My mother was an artist! Certainly, I have it in me somewhere!

Yesterday, I wanted to be a radiological technician. Today, I think I want to be a web designer.

Check with me tomorrow.

Pat Robertson

I like to think I am very tolerant of all religious groups and try to respect their opinions and beliefs. However, I take issue with many aspects of how Christianity seems to be delivered today. The inspiration behind this email comes from a recent statement made by Pat Robertson regarding Ariel Sharon. Robertson suggested that the severe stroke that has Sharon still in a coma and in critical condition was a direct punishment from God for pulling out of Gaza Strip last summer.
“God considers this land to be his," Robertson said "You read the Bible and he says 'This is my land,' and for any prime minister of Israel who decides he is going to carve it up and give it away, God says, 'No, this is mine." Okay, sure we all say stupid things. My first inclination is to cut the guy a little slack, because after all, he did apologize almost immediately thereafter.
Then I recalled his statement in August ’05 where he compared Venezuelan President Hugo Chavez to Saddam Hussein and Adolf Hitler and suggested that the United States should assassinate him. Of course he did apologize then as well. Then I remember so many other hate filled remarks that came out of this good Christian’s mouth. (Stupid Pat Robertson Quotes) Most of which he has not apologized for. It brings me to 2 of the biggest issues I have with Christianity as it often seems to be practiced today… 1) its seems to be ok to do and say whatever you want, even if it is unfair, unjust, and just plain hateful and mean… as long as you repent thereafter. Might I suggest that it could be possible for the good lord to strike you down before the next Sunday service at which time you plan to repent? 2) Have these Christians actually read the new testament? I thought Jesus was all about forgiveness, and turning the other cheek… and compassion, and helping those in need. Maybe I am simply confused, yet again.

Questions Questions Questions!

Is it just me or does everyone struggle with knowing what it is that they need versus knowing what it is that they want. And why can't I seem to want what I need? I mean I want to eat the entire carton of ice-cream; but really I need not! Then, I also struggle with knowing if the voice I am hearing in my head is my intuition or my fear. They both sound the same to me. Sometimes they are indeed saying the same thing, and that really sucks to discover. But I am glad I hear the voices. Does anyone else here the voices? Should I be medicated??

Life is still going quite well for me, I have to say. Just not so well that it would be found disgusting or unbelievable. Thank Goddess for that, it's hard to live in a fantasy world for too long, I tend to lose sight of what's real!

What type of wine are you?

I am a Chardonnay

"You are a fun and light-hearted penguin who believes in true love. You may be black and white on the outside, but under those feathers beats a heart of gold. Good times and good friends are never far away, which is why the Little Penguin Chardonnay is your social beverage of choice. "


I feel certain that a few months ago, I would have been a bitter, bitter 'whine'. Funny how life can change.

I'm Alive!

Currently, my life is so damn good, I feel most would either find it disgusting or unbelievable- or perhaps a little of both. But hey... there is some great stuff out there! Check out Dott Comments. While you are there, be sure to check out the photos from Isreal.

K-Rad's Amnesty Day

Today I have decided to forgive anyone who has intentionally or unintentionally hurt me phyiscally or emotionally between 1971-2003. It covers every hurt that I can remember currently...repressed memories are ineligible for this blanket amnesty. Anyone who has intentionally or unintentionally hurt me from 01/01/2004 to the present may have to wait for the next amnesty period. The current waiting period is 34 years, however applications for amnesty are available on request, and each applicant will be reviewed on a case by case basis.

DISCLAIMER: I can change my mind at any given moment and resend my forgiveness at the mere drop of the hat, if deemed necessary by me and only me.

Not valid with any other coupons or offers.

I'm Good Enough, I'm Smart Enough, and Doggone It, People Like Me!

While talking with some friends the other day, I was whinning about some poor choices I feel my mother made while I was growing up, and the fact that now that she has moved on from this world, I don't even get to fuss at her about how disfunctional those choices have made me, and how different my life would have been had she chose differently. One of my friends asked me how my life would be different. That simple question has made me re-think my anger, resentment and judgment of my mother's choices. I am a dependable, independent, individual with a free spirit and a lack of tolerance for violence of any kind, with a deep compassionate understanding and empathy for those less fortunate than I, and as the very same friend pointed out to me that same evening, quick to become indignant when I feel an injustice has occured. I like all that about me. Those are qualities I might not have, had my mother made different choices. So, a great big thank you goes out to my friend, my mom, and also to Stuart Smiley.

OCD or ADD?

Just today, the reason for my often chaotic life has become clear. I have known for some time that I have a least a mild case of Attention Deficit Disorder. Someone sent me a funny email a few years back that tells the story of a woman who begins a project in the morining, only to be distracted by another project, then that is distracted by another immediate need, which is then distacted by another issue, and so on... until at the end of the day, she gets back to the original unfinished project, only to wonder why she's too exhausted to continue, because she feels she nothing was accomplished all day. I found that story describes me pretty well some days.
Now, consider this. I have come to realize that when I do sit down to focus on a task at hand, I find I have obsessive compulsive tendencies. I have been known to alphabetize, by category, my canned goods and also my CD's. I categorize all my hanging clothes by type, then style then color, shoes are categorized by color, then by style.
Today, I realized that my ADD and OCD are continually at odds with each other. When life is running smoothly, my OCD kicks in, and all is right with the world. However, during an emotionally rough period, or even just a very busy week or so, my OCD goes out the window, ADD kicks into high gear, and I am lucky if I can find the pair of shoes I am looking for... usually buried under any number of piles of clothes that have collected throughout the house. My ADD also keeps me from following through to keep things as organized as I like them. I'll set it up perfectly, where everything has a place, but things never seem to find their way back to their proper home. I think perhaps it has to do with that whole discipline thing I seem to lack.

I think will try to make a concerted effort to put some discipline and structure in my life.

Check back with me to see if I follow through with that!

Happy Anniversary

It was a year ago today since we lost the election. One down, three more to go. Things are looking rather bleak... do you think we can survive three more years of Bush??

Let's all send out lots of love and light, and hope for better things to come.

I'm off to have a beer.

New Job

I am working downtown now. After three weeks at my new job, here are some things I have learned:

• There are nearby places with some fairly decent food choices.
• Considering walking time of 7 minutes from the garage 4 blocks away, it takes the same amount of time to get to work now as it did to get to my previous job. The mileage from home was previously 15, now 2.
• I have a window desk, a nice view of the traffic on 2nd and Chestnut.
• I find my regular habit of sleeping in my car during lunch rather toxic, being parked in a garage and all.
• I haven't seen a hawk or a vulture yet, lots of pigeons; although none have flown into the window!
• Overtime might be permissable here, maybe even a necessity (that's financially a good thing, in my opinion).
• I still have no friggin clue as to how to do my job; ok, maybe an inkling of a clue.
• I found a Starbuck's within walking distance.
• 'Walking distance' has increased dramatically for me. I define walking distance as 'slightly farther than where I parked my car'... much further now than previously.
• I survived my first walk from the garage in the rain. Not too bad, but it wasn't a down-pour.
• There's no Q-Doba anywhere nearby.
• This morning I found my bank within 'walking distance'.
• The folks I work with seem very nice and are starting to warm up to me. They seem like a fun bunch.
• I like getting to work at 8:30 rather than 7am. It means I can stay up past 9pm!
• I don't like leaving work at 5pm rather than 4, it seems half the evening is gone already; you wouldn't think an hour could make such a difference.
• All but one employee here in the department has at least 1 dog. In fact, my boss isn't here today because her dog is sick. I may fit in yet!

To the Chocolate Lover's Friend; You know who you are!

I have recently heard it said that there is something about dark chocolate, that after one bite, the taste left in your mouth leaves you wanting more. Is it possible to eat only half of any kind of chocolate bar? Who won the bet? I have to know!

School expels girl for having gay parents

Unbelievable! You'd think by their own teaching they would want to keep her there to witness to her! Praise the Lord God! Halleluiah! You know it's the sick that need the doctor, not the well!

Hypocritical Bastards!

Ice Cream

So, I have this thing about ice cream. Well, maybe I have several things about ice cream. First and foremost, it is the perfect food. It can be eaten at (or for) any meal, anytime, almost anywhere. Secondly, I think Sarah McLaughlin has some issues. I have never met anyone whose love was better than ice-cream. I don't even think it is a possiblity.
I prefer my ice cream a little on the soft side. It doesn't have to be the soft serve kind, in fact, that's my least favorite type of ice-cream... Of course I wouldn't ever turn it away. I like it to be just slightly melted, the perfect blend of frozen and creamy. I never buy ice cream at the grocery, because I'm afraid I'll eat it all in one sitting. Today, I have realized my fears are not without warrant. I did buy some ice cream to share with some friends after dinner last night. Although we did finish the derby pie that was accompanying the ice cream, we didn't finish the 1.75 quart container of vanilla bean ice cream. So, this evening, mere moments ago, I got a spoon and sat on the couch eating the ice cream directly from the carton. I quickly realized that I wasn't getting what I really wanted. I really wanted that soft slightly melted consistency. Instead of waiting for that perfect moment... I just kept eating. Only occasionally fulfilling my longing, by scooping around the edges of the carton, where by holding with my knees, it had melted perfectly. The only problem was that I was eating it too quickly for it to get to that desirable state. All the while, I knew this was happening. I even kept thinking to myself that I might actually eat less, if I were getting exactly what I wanted and needed... yes, ice cream is a need, not merely a want!
That lead me to thinking about my romantic relationships. Some very startling revelations hit me. 1) I like my women like I like my ice-cream... a little soft and not too cold. 2) I need to wait for the right person and the right time to be with them. 3) Apparently, I need to continue working out all that co-dependency crap, and getting what I need from myself and other areas of my life, and not continually gorging myself on unhealthy things that don't even make me happy! 4) If I ever find someone whose love is better than ice-cream... I might just give it up! And maybe I'll quit eating ice cream too!

My Inner-Self

I can't really decide if this is who I want to be, or if this is who I want to be with!

Either way, I sure do like her. I created her myself.

You too can create your own super hero, or super lover as the case may be.

Do it now, Bitch!